I have seen His face and lost my life as I beheld Him. I am ruined!

I lost my life but I don’t want it back.

He must have it all. He must be exalted. He must be lifted high. He must increase. I don’t serve for anything else anymore. I live for His glory and His name’s sake alone… Nothing else makes sense, nothing else matters. I have been ruined, and what a terrible thing is to be ruined by the Most High.

He must have it all. He must receive His reward – I am the reward, for my life is not my own. I carry it for Him, and He must have it. I can’t hold it; He must have it.

Deep calls unto deep. I can feel it; Every fiber of my being yielding to Him and crying out to be made His. I cannot explain it, I cannot contain it. It is a loud cry, It’s an omnipresent cry. I hear it saying:

He must have it all. He must receive His reward – I am the reward.

I was made for this very reason, I was made for Him. The Father has given me to Him, and of those He has been given, He has lost none.

Oh death! You cannot have me, I am already dead. I’ve been crucified with Christ, the son of God. The life that I now live is not my own. The life which I now live in the flesh, I don’t live on my own; I live by faith in the One that has loved me and given Himself for me. I am His forever and no one can take me from His hands.

I am glad, I am joyful, I am satisfied because I belong to Christ.

I am His forever, and He shall have His reward.

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This encapsulates the essence of what I’ve been experiencing over the past few days as closely as my words can convey.

But we all, with unveiled face beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are transformed into the same image from glory to glory, even as from the Lord the Spirit.

2 CORINTHIANS 3:18